Panic Attack in Dreams Kills Me

Have you ever had a Panic attack in your dreams?

And all you wanted to do was to prove while you were still sleeping that it’s not real?

There is one dream, one of my enemy dreams. I experience it mainly when I am tensed or worried about something.

I see that it’s my Engineering last semester’s exam. The atmosphere is tensed because I am not prepared for one of the toughest subjects. I clearly see that there is only one day left for the paper and I don’t know anything about the subject.

Scary thoughts haunt me in my dream. What if I fail in this subject? This will ruin my career as I won’t be able to join the company which recruited me. What will my parents think about me? They have put in so much effort for my education. My friends will have job but not me. A total waste of my 4 years of college just because of one subject! Why Kriti Why! Why didn’t you study beforehand? Should I kill myself? Should I run away?

There always comes a moment in my dream where I get a PANIC attack just like a heart attack. I could feel my heart racing so fast. At the same time I could feel that I am in my dreams or maybe not and this is my current situation. This series of thoughts kills me in my dreams.

When I slowly start to wake up and I understand that I am in my bed and it was my dream believe me friends there is no such relief than this. I actually visit temple to thanks God that I somehow survived in my last semester and didn’t fail in any subject. You know why because there was one such subject.